|"half the time, the world is ending/truth is, I am done pretending..."
||[Dec. 11th, 2008|01:35 am]
I think it's time for me to say good-bye.
Don't worry, I'm not gonna do anything crazy. But I have to walk away. This whole thing, with Sarah and ConTech and the creepy bald guys- even if I don't post, it's just burned in my brain and eating me up inside, and I can't let it do that anymore. If I don't walk away, it's going to destroy me eventually.
I'm sorry. I am. I love you guys, and I'll keep in touch, just not here. LJ just always reminds me of Sarah. If you guys decide to keep fighting, good luck. I can't. I'm not that strong.
And to be honest, I'm not sure we could win. I'm not sure we ever could. I'm not sure we were ever going to get her back.
I hope I'm wrong.
In the meantime, I have to try and fix things with my father, and my family. And myself. Maybe I'll post again someday. But not now.